couldn't tell you what happens

i feel like i'll be going along with my life, just fine, convincing myself that things have gotten easier, and then all of a sudden, it's like it all happened yesterday, and i'm rendered helpless, paralyzed with pain and sadness and the sting of memories and the way things were. then in moments, it will all have passed, like this tremendous hurricane of hurt.
and i'm left floating on my raft, bruised and battered, stranded in the middle of the ocean.
barely breathing and completely turned around, wondering what-ever happened.
and where to go from here.